Staring Fear in The Face

“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do.” ― Eleanor Roosevelt

This few months of being in the MBA program at Lagos Business School has been a roller coaster of emotions. Emotions ranging from fear, giving up, encouraging myself, tearing, etc. As a student, doing an MBA in LBS has been an easy one for me. My heart pants at the thought of my studies; I can not really say why this is the case for me.

To be honest, I guess this could be as a result of the fact that, the school environment is considered a very competitive environment. Competitions are cool and great because it brings out the best in one but definitely does stresses me out.

It really has been an easy one for me. From sitting long hours in class dealing with one course or another, working on assignments and course works, etc. It is really tasking. There are days, I which it could just past and I would not have to deal with things as this.

Days when I brood over how tiring, stressful and difficult it is for my to focus and study; I can not help but wonder how my lecturers/facilitators did this. It heightens my my regards and respect for my lecturers/facilitators who have walked this path before me.

I am really having a hard time with some courses in the program but that is not even the issue. The issue is that, I am now made to take a tutorial class on a course I have little or no knowledge on. When I was told to take a tutorial class on accounting rather than turn it down; I took it as a challenge. A course I dreaded so much, I took it up as a challenge; went ahead prepared to tutor.

Here comes the tutorial day. My fear (accounting) looking me in the face; I could not escape it. Worst off in a multitude of people awaiting to hear what I had to offer. I faced my fear and the good God saw me through, but not without sweaty palms and shaky feet.

The MBA program has been quite daring; starting from public speaking, blogging, connecting with different calibers of people. I am quite convinced that, despite the fact that it is quite tough for me; the whole process is shaping me to be a better person not just for myself but also for people around me and my generation at large.